Gratitude

It’s Monday and the holiday is over.  We had a lovely dinner and I received lovely gifts from my girls.  We watched a movie together and this morning they all went to school.

I’m still blogged down and overwhelmed with deadlines.  I feel as though the little bit of creativity that I have just left me when I finished a writing piece for one of my classes.  The next bit of creativity will be deciding what to make for dinner.

Here’s what I do have.

Gratitude.

I am grateful for my family.  I am grateful for my beautiful and amazing wife who takes care of me every single day.  She gives me everything, does everything, and IS everything to me.  Every day that I look at her I am amazed and in awe of how lucky that I am to have her in my life–loving me and the girls–always there for us–always cherishing us.

Sometimes I don’t feel worthy of the love that she bestows on me.  Sometimes I forget how lucky I am–I get selfish and crazy.  But I always remember and when I look at her or lie in her arms at night I remember and tell her so.

It’s easy to forget how lucky we are and then awful things happen like cyclones and tornadoes and earthquakes in China and a million people get hurt or killed–a million people just like us living our lives and it causes us to stop for a moment and think about how precious and wonderful our lives are.

Life is funny.  Not funny ha-ha all of the time.  Not even some of the time for some people, but life is what it is.  There isn’t always a lot to feel grateful for but there is always something to feel grateful for.

I hope you all find something today and reflect on those things with love in your heart.

Happy Monday.

Gratitude

Last Monday I was having a bad day.  My BFF Neighbor Judy had to come over and lay in bed with me and listen to me cry about what a crappy person I am–it was that kind of day.  When I got to school that morning I parked next to a car that had a bumper sticker on it that said, “Attitude of Gratitude.”  I started to shift my poor me perspective into something more positive and throughout the week things have looked up.

These past couple of weeks, I have felt as though things within me were deconstructing a bit; things have been broken apart for further examination–not in a bad way–in a good way.  I truly believe that in order to grow, first you must let go of some of the things that have perhaps been keeping you from moving forward.  Letting go of old stuff that sends you negative messages or keeps you from launching into a new season.  I’ve had to think about letting go of some old stuff–memories, messages, habits.  Figuring them out, Spring Cleaning if you will.

Spring is a new season, and it’s just around the corner.  It’s fresh and clean and renewing in every way.  It smells good, it’s wet, it’s colorful, it’s pretty.  It also brings me to the anniversary of my birth.  Birth and Re-Birth.

In nine days I turn another year older–it’s the last year of a decade for me, I’m turning 39.  That is a Day.  Just a Day, but thinking about its newness brings me excitement.  I already feel better.  I already feel smarter, and I already feel happier.

I used to have a circle.  When I was married and living here in the Scary Suburbs raising my kids, I had a circle.  The circle contained people who were the same as me, did the same things, thought the same way, and basically maintained a life that focused completely on our community, spouses, and kids.  Something wrong with that?  Not at all.  I left the circle, I was pushed out of the circle–I didn’t fit in anywhere and slowly I have been trying to figure out a way to construct another circle–this time a much different circle that I assumed would figure itself out.  I believe the circle is forming, and it is much different.  I’ve let go on the old circle.  I don’t need it anymore, or it’s memories, or it’s negativity.

Lately I have had the PRIVILEGE to meet and spend time with some very positive and amazing people.  Some of these people are new in my life and others are good friends that have enhanced my life on a daily basis just by knowing them.  The people that I have had the privilege to spend time with lately are surrounding and filling me with so much positive energy and meaning–I’m further defining myself on my journey and discovering that there are many, many parts of who I am.   Surrounding myself with people and energy who don’t deplete me–but fill me–with ideas, with energy, with good thoughts, with philosophy, with education and knowledge, with insight.  And with goodness.

We all need people in our lives.  I have HG and she is the most important people I have.  I have the girls–they are the most important people too.  I also have other people–and I am grateful for them, their friendship, and their energy.

I am grateful for my circle of people.

Gratitude Post

April 17, 2007

I am grateful that:

1. I finished and e-filed my taxes.
2. My daughter’s are healthy.
3. I was able to parent help and be with DD#3 today.
4. My anxiety seems to be lessening.
5. I have a beautiful and wonderful wife who adores me and is committed to me.

I am visualizing:

1. $18,000.00 in my savings account.
2. More inspiration about my guide book idea.
3. The IRS accepting my return without issue.
4. Continued healing and growth in my relationships.
5. A happy, healthy birth for my friends Karen and Wendy.
6. Peace in my body.
7. Peace in my mind.
8. Peace in my heart.
9. Love for people who don’t agree with me.
10. Harmony and love in my relationship with my wife.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

I am grateful:

1. That I have a home that I love and one that I share with the people that I love most in the world.
2. That I have supportive friends in life and in blog.
3. That someone loves me as much as HG does.
4. That my friends Karen and Wendy had a healthy baby girl.
5. That my XH and I had a healthy, friendly, e-mail exchange today, one that actually made me smile and chuckle a little bit.
6. That I have everything that I really need.

I am visualizing:

1. Safety for my wife as she travels.
2. Money flowing in freely and easily.
3. Inspiration from many sources to guide me.
4. Happy, healthy children.
5. Me: Calm and at Peace.
6. Me: Secure and Connected.

Gratitude Post

April 3, 2007

I am in Gratitude:

1. I am grateful that my girls got ready for school today without fighting.
2. I am grateful that they made their beds without being asked.
3. I am grateful that I had a little time to snuggle with my wife after the girls left for school.
4. I am grateful that I was able to spend time parent helping with DD#3’s class today.
5. I am grateful for the smile on little girl’s faces, and the silliness of little boys!
6. I am grateful that my attorney called me back today and expressed how sorry she was that she hadn’t been helping me the way that she should.
7. I am grateful for the sun that is shining today and for my beautiful home.
8. I am grateful for my mom who is hopefully coming for dinner tonight.
9. I am grateful that someone bought HG’s sea kayak and now she can buy the bike she wants.
10. I am grateful that the doors are opening for me!

I Visualize for myself:

1. Abundance.
2. 18,000.00 in my savings account.
3. DD#1 playing classic soccer.
4. Love
5. Happiness
6. Cooperation
7. Harmony and
8. Peace in my home
9. A job I love doing
10. My healthy body