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Darkness
Posted under Being RSG by Recovering Straight GirlI find myself shrouded in darkness,
Left here to be alone
In my solitude,
My comfort.
Armed only with a brandy to calm my nerves,
The lonesome cigarette
That may be a crutch of my solace
To hear the calm.
My thoughts.
I hear the cry of a cat,
The screech of a bat, (or maybe an owl?)
With no one, at the end of my complaining.
I have no complaint.
I know peace in the darkness,
And the quiet that is my home.
While everyone sleeps, how quiet it is.
How loud the highway shrieks,
Beckoning some one to hear her.
The neighbor, who is a cop, who comes home late at night.
No one hears him but me.
My dogs sleep.
My children sleep,
(thank God.)
And I am left alone to my own thoughts,
Whispers in the wind,
And the sound of my neighbors air conditioning,
Prevent me from sleep.
I can not sleep.
For there is something that I must find.
In the darkness.
And when I do,
I must face a new day.
DON’T STAY STILL. Push thru it. It is only a moment. Don’t let this consume you. If you stay still the darkness will consume you. Make peace with it and move on.
That was absolutely beautiful.
Soulful and real.
Peace.
Love you.
Hey Lady,
Enjoyed the writing, but sorry that you’re feeling alone in the darkness. Isn’t it funny how night and day feel so different (literally)?
Alone with your thoughts can be an overwhelming place to be sometimes…
Sometimes when I get like that I literally have to fight to find that other part of me that yells “SNAP OUT OF IT”..and luckily she usually does snap me out of it..but night is hardest of all.
Hope you are feeling better today.
Sometimes I worry so much that i start worrying about my worrying too much. I think I need that brandy too !!
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