Sniffle

Posted under Being RSG, Mothering by Recovering Straight Girl

Somehow I managed to get through the entire flu season without even a sniffle and now that the weather cleared for us this weekend and I was super busy with a million things, I have been plagues with a sickness. At first I was unsure if it was an allergy or if I was getting a cold and I tried to assure myself that it was the former rather than the latter. This morning I realized I was wrong. I shouldn’t complain, I haven’t been sick in over a year.  So I won’t. Instead I’m going to focus on taking care of myself and resting–something I don’t do very often. Although this morning Kennedy laid a blanket out on the couch and said, “I made you a couch bed,” something I always do for them when they are sick! She’s taking care of her mom and is definitely a keeper.

I had a very nice Mother’s Day. The girls, (really Cher,) bought me two 4X4 garden boxes so that I can grow vegetables and herbs this summer. There is only one spot at our home that gets full sun and that is in the very front of the front yard. Guess where my garden boxes are going? In the very front of the front yard and I don’t give a crap if that’s not the proper place for a vegetable garden and I don’t care what the neighbors say. Ha. Rebellious again, but I will have tomatoes and cucumbers and lettuce and what not this summer, barring I don’t kill everything that is!

This past Saturday I had the privilege of speaking at a fundraiser where I told a story about motherhood. I know that I’m not the same mother that I may have been before and I know I’m not the same as other mothers. There are times that I really don’t like being a mother very much (usually this is when the girls are screaming and fighting about something important like a bobby pin or hair bow.) I know that I won’t win any Mother of the Year awards and I don’t need to. I do know that the three girls that I am raising are good ones and I hope they will be good women in the world and stand up for themselves and for justice everywhere. I want them to be anything in the world that they want to be as long as they do it with love in their heart and don’t act like a douchebag in the process. Then I will know that I’ve done an okay job.

Last week I became the mother of another teenager; Halsey had a birthday and turned 13.

I knew this day would come someday, as I realize that the day will come soon enough that I will have three teenagers in my house. For now, I’ll just tread lightly into this territory and try to hold onto them as long as I can, for I know the days are becoming shorter. I don’t know what will happen then but I’m not going to worry so much. I’m going to focus on living life and enjoying the moments with them that are fun and loving and happy. The rest will figure itself out because it always does.

For right now though, I need to take care of myself which entails my sitting on the couch and watching movies. The one I have in now has subtitles and my French is pretty sub-par so I should probably read what’s on the bottom of the screen. I need some tissues and gingerale and some Italian Wedding Soup so if you’re out and about, please stop at the Safeway and pick some up. Thanks.