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Wanted: Motivation
Posted under Being RSG by Recovering Straight GirlIt’s that time in my school term when I ask myself, “What the hell am I doing?” I try to remind myself that it’s just that time in the term when I ask myself this question and move on.
If there is one thing I have gotten really good at in life, it’s reasoning with myself. I can talk myself in or out of most things; we have long conversations and I am able to point out all sorts of things to myself. We like it. As I have gotten older I have a self-awareness that allows me to know that every couple of weeks I feel very blah and don’t want to do anything. I feel overwhelmed. I feel like I can’t make anything work and I’m a complete failure. I know that when that happens I need to do certain things to help myself feel better and keep moving forward because I know it will get better very soon.
Yesterday I bought myself some daffodils. Today I’m going to get my ass in gear (as soon as I’m finished writing this) and do some work, some homework, have a meeting and later I’ll reward myself with a date with my sweet friend Sarah. There will be wine and pedicures involved. Tomorrow I must catch up on my Fiction writing class and then I should feel better about things.
I hope.
I didn’t realize that this Sunday is the Superbowl. I know that I could Google it, but I don’t even know who is playing and I don’t want you to tell me. The reason I didn’t know that it is the Superbowl this Sunday is because I haven’t been invited to a Superbowl party. Won’t you please invite me to yours? I promise I’ll root for the right team.I’ll even bring some chips.
When my motivation returns I have a letter or two to write and a bathroom to paint and shelves to hang up. Also Ginger needs a haircut. I should make a list but I’m afraid at this point in my lack of motivation the list might overwhelm me.
I will pay the garbage bill however. I don’t want THAT to happen again.
Did I tell you about that Internet? How I forgot to pay the garbage bill? I just forgot. It wasn’t like I didn’t have the money in the bank, because I did. I just forgot. The bill only comes every other month and I throw it in the drawer. In November I forgot to pay it and they took my garbage cans away.
Cher was not pleased and we had no garbage cans for a week.
So I made a really big payment and paid it ahead and now it’s due again. $41.67. I should put it on my list.
I’m not good with money. I never have been. I do budget but I don’t write stuff down in my checkbook because I just assume that there is money in there. I have a “head-in-the-sand” attitude and really I have come to terms with this. I’m good at SO many other things so I don’t dwell on it so much–it works for the most part.
Well, except when I forget to pay the garbage bill but I don’t see that happening again.
It’s 9:18 and I’m hoping at 10:00 some of my motivation will kick in. If you have some extra, won’t you please send some to me?
But I *have* to tell you because [we] the Saints have never been to the Superbowl before. Everybody around here is practically WILD with excitement.
You’re invited to our superbowl party. Seriously.
You can come to my Superbowl party. It’ll be me and my son playing Xbox while my wife watches ghost movies in the other room.
Go Saints.
/betting the Colts.
If we were having a super bowl party, you would be invited. Instead, my girlfriend and I will be working a private super bowl party. However, since others have spoiled it (and don’t feel bad–we didn’t know who was in the super bowl until yesterday because, well, to work a party, we kind of need to know the teams) I, too will be rooting for the Saints–the underdogs, because, well, in a way we’re all underdogs, don’t you think?
Can’t help with the bills, that is something we just have to remember to pay, but when I switched from debit card spending to an envelope budget, my life got so much less stressful. I have an envelope for grocery money and an envelope for the allowance I give myself for everything that is not a bill or food – gas, conditioner, drinks with friends, etc. The amount of my allowance varies as our resources allow, it is always the same as spouse’s. Since I had a head in the sand attitude as well, having real money instead of debit card transactions really helped me adjust my attitude. Not enough to take my envelopes away, I’m not that bold yet.
Garbage bill? Strange goings on, to be sure.
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